I can remember the first time my husband proposed to me, and the second, I said ‘No’ both times because he wasn’t sober and I didn’t think he meant it.
When we did get married there was no proposal, no ceremony surrounded by friends, no pictures, not even an announcement to our close family or friends. We went to the courthouse and applied for our license.
Original Blog Post-May 6, 2016
It’s been 10 days since I went to court for the Final Hearing on our divorce. It seemed like a dream. I knew it would eventually be finished but I dreaded the day when it was.
Yesterday my now ex-husband texted and wanted to know, ‘So are we divorced now or what?’
I replied sarcastically, ‘What’s the big hurry?’
Another Day Original Blog Post-April 21, 2016
I’m sitting here trying to finish a cup of coffee before anyone else wakes up. After my overwhelming day yesterday… actually the past little bit which has been full of weeks and months of overwhelming days I really need a break. I’m not picky, I’ll take them whenever I can get them.
I hope everyone is a little less stressed and overwhelmed as I am. I am telling myself that today will be better than yesterday and I am determined that it will be.
Original Blog Post-May 26, 2016
Even though my last relationship ended badly and I was hurt beyond belief, I survived. I know that sometimes things just aren’t meant to be. That’s OK. We are working on being better people and being the best possible parents we can be to our children. We just weren’t good together.
I didn’t want to admit it at first but it soon became painfully clear that we just didn’t click anymore. It was hard to admit that to myself as I felt like a failure. I desperately clung to the dreams we had made and I tried so hard to make him feel the way he felt in the beginning.
That was a big part of the problem.
Original Blog Post-April 14, 2016
When we first decided to start this homeschooling adventure in January of 2015 it was overwhelming! I was nervous, excited, scared, and eager to be the best I could be. I just knew that this was the best thing I could do and that I would be the perfect teacher. Well, that last thought was short-lived.
Original Blog Post-April 21, 2016
Its 9:00 am and I’m sitting on my bed feeling overwhelmed already. I was determined I would make it through the day without crying or feeling sad but that’s not the case.
Something my husband said the other day still haunts me and it saddens my heart for him, our children, and for what the future holds if he doesn’t change the path he is on. I know he says he is happy but I can’t help but feel sad when I think of how he will feel when the day comes and he realizes what he gave up on and what he missed out on.