Momma, come sit with me.

‘Momma, come sit with me.’ That’s what my 3 year old said today at lunchtime. He had been picking at his sandwich and sticking around the table after everyone else had went to their rooms for lunch. He gave me that sweet smile with those little blue eyes just a sparkling. Who could resist that smile?

Not me! The neverending To-Do list can wait. The basket of unfolded laundry can wait. The dirty dishes in the sink can wait. The chores that need finished can wait. The millions of other things running through my mind,at any given moment, can wait.

Right now he needs me and he is asking me for my time. I admit that sometimes I feel like I am spread pretty thin. I feel like I just can’t do anything more than what I am doing right now. It’s hard being a Momma.It’s hard being a single Momma. It’s hard being a special needs Momma. It’s hard being a single special needs Momma! Yes, I said it’s hard. It’s almost downright impossible on some days. But then there are the good days or the little moments like this.

The house is quiet-ish as everyone is settling down for naps and/or quiet time. The school work has been finished and put away. He continues to nibble at his sandwich while I grab my glass of watered down iced tea. I sit in the chair next to him and he smiles. A genuinely lit up ear to ear kind of smile. Those little eyes are just dancing with ideas that he wants to tell me.

So he begins by informing me that my feet are in the water. I laugh and pull my feet up and sit cross legged in the chair.

‘Is that better?’, I ask.

‘Yes, Momma, now the sharks can’t get you.’

‘Well that’s a good thing! Thank you so much for warning me.’, I say.

He laughs and then he proceeds to explain to me how a T-Rex would catch a fish. He imitates the T-Rex while eating his fish (peanut butter sandwich) and he laughs a lot. He tells me what he wants for snack later, a dinosaur cupcake from yesterday, and he asks if he and ‘all my friends’ can go outside after naps. He always refers to his brothers and sisters as ‘all my friends’ and he draws a big circle in the air when he says it. It is so cute!

He eats a few more bites and declares he is full. Then he grabs his napkin and attempts to wipe the peanut butter off his face. I help him and he takes off running back to his room before I can finish. He jumps into his bed and curls up with a stuffed toy and his favorite dinosaur toy. Then he closes his eyes and pretends to be asleep. I lean over and give him a quick kiss on the cheek and he giggles.

These are the moments that make my day and give me the momentum I need to get through the tough days. I get a little sad as I know they are all growing up so fast. I know that before long he won’t be asking me to come sit with him anymore. I want to take the time to cherish these little moments and enjoy them while I can.

I walked back to the kitchen to jot down this post so I will have it to look back on in the future. I think about how blessed I am and how precious life is. I am so thankful that God has put me where I am right now. He has given me more than I ever deserved and I know He has so many plans in store for me and my family.

He always knows what we need and when we need it. This morning I read Proverbs 13:4:

It reminds me that I need to keep pressing on towards my goals. I can’t give up and let myself get lazy. I can have hope in knowing that if I stay diligent there will be a reward for all of the hard work I put in here on earth. This little moment with my son was just a taste of that and it was so beautiful! I can’t even begin to imagine what the future may hold for us.

Thank you Lord for your blessings on me and my family!

Who Am I?

Who Am I?

I am a woman, a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend, a daughter, I am a person just like you.
All to often we forget that the people who are subjects of the rumors and gossip flying around are people just like you and I. They are someone’s child, parent, sibling, friend or spouse. They are REAL and they have FEELINGS.

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What about today?

Original Blog Post-April 24, 2016
I’m having a horrible dream, tossing and turning, and just can’t sleep well. I’m dreaming my husband is gone. He left and he isn’t coming back. I can feel such intense emotions and it feels so real I wake up with tears in my eyes.
I turn and reach for him but he’s not there.

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A Good Man

What would be considered a good man? I guess we all could have very different answers to that question. Our answers could even vary depending on when and where are in life.
I think a good man is one who lives his life in a way that no one could question his intentions. The way he lives his life is a reflection of who he truly is on the inside.
Recently I met a man who I believe truly is a ‘good man’. Why do I say this? He is probably one of the sweetest most humble men I have ever come across in my time here on earth. He definitely lives in a way that others would see Jesus in him.
This man is kind and takes care of others. He will help without being asked and gives without expecting to be repaid. I have met others who I thought were like this but he has helped me in so many ways that I could never repay him.
He is full of wisdom. He will take the time to listen and then help you with your problems. I can confide in him without worry of him repeating it.
Is he perfect? No, but he admits his faults and will not blame others when he has made a mistake. He is honest and genuine. He stands by his morals and his character couldn’t be questioned. He is a man of integrity for sure.
He encourages me and I’m sure he encourages others around him to be better people. People have noticed a difference in me since I met him. I am a better person because of knowing him and I thank him for that. (Really, I do thank him a lot and he hasn’t a clue why!)
I thank God for letting our paths cross and letting me know this ‘good man’. Knowing him has given me a newfound hope that our world is not as lost as I thought it was. It is a better place just knowing that there are a few good men still out there.
Hopefully everyone one of us can think of a good man around us. One that we are thankful to have in our lives as a role model, a leader, or as a friend. It can be a brother, a father, a husband, a neighbor, or maybe someone at church.
Can we all take a few minutes and say a prayer for these men of God? We need to pray that God will protect them and guide them along their paths. Pray for strength and wisdom for them to get through the many battles they will face. Pray that they will lead their lives so that others will want to come to know Christ. Also pray that God will find favor in them and will bless them abundantly in this life and in heaven. Amen.
Additional thoughts:
A good man makes you happy. Just think about it, when you talk to him or do things with you then you are left feeling happy. It doesn’t matter what the conversation is about or what activity you will have a sense of genuine happiness just being in contact with this man.
When life gets hard and confusing and you feel like you are helpless he will remind you that you are not. He will bring a breath of fresh air to reignite the embers in your soul so that your light can shine again.