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December 12, 2016

Good morning! I had intended to write this post about the peaceful mornings but plans changed. I started my day as usual and the kids actually slept in a bit so I was not being hurried to get breakfast ready and on the table.

I sat down with my coffee and reflected on a few things. One of which was yesterday’s sermon about clinging to grace. We need to remember that when times are hard and nothing seems to be going right that we still have grace to carry us through. We need to keep holding fast to the promises that God has given us. He has a plan for us and He knows what we need even we don’t really have a clue.

I have had many a day when I have felt so discouraged and sad. Part of this is due to the fact that I don’t have someone to walk alongside of. Someone to share my little joys with or someone to hold me when I am down. I do miss having someone to hold my hand or the feeling of someone coming up behind me and wrapping their arms around me and holding me tight. I sometimes long to have someone to talk to about my day or being able to listen to someone tell me about their day. I miss having someone to snuggle close to when the nights are cold or when I don’t want to get up in the morning.

I try my best not to dwell on these feelings as I know that God is in control. I know that right now my focus needs to be on Him and the rest will fall into place. He is always there and will never leave me. He knows the innermost thoughts of my heart and all of my desires. He will comfort me like no one else can. I know that if it is in His will for me to have someone beside me He will allow our paths to cross.

So for now I will continue to pray for His wisdom and guidance, not only for myself, but for the one He has chosen for me. I pray that God will bless Him beyond measure and supply all his needs. I pray that  He will guide him and protect him and that He will surround Him with people who will encourage him. I pray that God will continue to mold him and shape him into the man God intends him to be.

I don’t know God’s will or His plans for my life but I know that He loves me and only wants the best for me. I also know that a lot of my problems have been because I wasn’t patient enough and didn’t wait for Him to reveal His plan to me. I tried to do things my own way and they didn’t turn out the way I had planned. I’ve made so many mistakes and suffered so many failures.

I pray that God will continue to work in my life and mold me and shape me into the person He wants me to be. I know that He can turn mistakes into miracles and that God has not forgotten about me. I pray that if it is not His will for me to have someone to walk with that He will fill my heart with joy and help me to be content where I am right now.

Right now, I will keep my focus on Him and on the job He has blessed me with as a mother and a keeper of my home. This is an important job that He has placed on me and it is full of responsibilities. My attitude and behavior will influence everyone around me especially my children. God calls us to show His love to all of those around us and I pray that everyone I meet can see how His love overflows from my heart. I pray that everyone around me will always feel loved, welcomed, safe, and comforted when they enter into our home.

Yes, it would be so much easier if I had someone to help me shoulder the many burdens of raising a family and keeping a home but God will give me the strength I need. I don’t really look at my role as a burden as I try to do everything with a servant’s heart because I love my family. So I will try not to be discouraged and I will keep singing His praises because God is so good to me! He has blessed me, an unworthy sinner, and He has loved me and shown me His grace and mercy. So for now I will indeed continue to cling to that grace and allow it to carry me through this difficult part of my journey.

Coming Home

At this time of year many of us will be traveling to visit friends and family. Some of us will be headed back to our childhood homes. Often times this can create a flood of memories and emotions that can overwhelm us.

We had planned to visit with family but a stomach bug has hit our house so I think we will be staying home. However yesterday I was blessed with my own ‘coming home’ experience. It was a precious moment to say the least.

I had only left to run a couple of errands but my littlest was still napping when I had left. He always likes to tell me good bye and make sure that I know he will be missing me while I am gone.

When I pulled into the drive I saw him come running from one side of the play yard to where he could see me better. He was jumping up and down and waving. It was his little smile though that got me. He was lit up from ear to ear with genuine happiness.

As I pulled behind the house to park I could hear him yelling, ‘Mommy’s home, Mommy’s home’. I brought in the groceries and headed to my room to put up a couple of things. I heard him come in and start searching for me. He quickly went from room to room asking others where I was.

When he found me he was still wearing that sweet smile. He hugged me so tightly and I could feel his happiness and joy transferring to me. Of course, I picked him up and hugged that little guy right back. It was a beautiful moment. I know there will probably come a day when he doesn’t want to hug me so I will cherish this little moment.

This made me realize that coming home and being welcomed by those who love us and are genuinely happy to be with us is such a wonderful feeling. They will bring us joy and love and it will bless us in so many ways.

So, no matter what is going on around you right now, please remember to take a few moments during this holiday season to make sure that those you love really know that you love them. Give them a ‘coming home’ experience that they will cherish forever. It will not only bless them but will bless you as well.

Living the country life?

Original Blog Post April 6, 2016
What does living the country life really mean?
I know I think of farms with cows and chickens.
I think of lazy mornings sitting on the back porch sipping my hot coffee while wondering what to do to pass the endless amount of free time I have.
I think of working in a garden with lots of beautiful plants springing forth.
I think of my kids playing barefoot in the yard.
Then after a nice dinner, made from things we have grown on our farm, we sip some sweet tea and watch the sunset go down from our back porch swing.
In reality things are not quite so simple and not so peaceful.
I wake up before the alarm goes off and hear the roosters crowing. I try to carefully roll out of bed because any movement will wake up one or both of the little ones in my bed.
I tiptoe to the bathroom with my clothes in hand and softly close the door. No sooner do I turn on the water then I hear the pitter-patter of little feet, see a hand under the door and hear ‘Mommy, is you in der?’. Sigh, that’s how most mornings start around here.
I try my best to get up early and have a little quiet time, a little sliver of time for me and time to talk to God but it rarely happens the way I have it planned in my head.
After a quick shower we make our way to the kitchen for a chocolate milk sippy for him and one for my his big brother (yes, they do look out for each other) and he heads to the couch for his daily dose of Animal Planet.
Meanwhile I go back to the kitchen and start with pouring a cup of coffee and trying to remember what I need to do next.
Breakfast… Yes, I should probably do that. I grab my phone and check my calendar for the recipe (I’ll probably write about that another day) which is blueberry muffins. I don’t feel like making muffins. Actually I don’t feel like doing anything but going back to bed.
I mix up the muffins (using frozen blueberries from our farm) and pop them in the oven. I remember to set the timer too! (Last night I forgot and I almost burned the cookies.) I have about 15 minutes so I hurry back to the bathroom to fix my hair.
I sneak back to my room and read my daily devotional and say a quick prayer to ask God to watch over us and guide us through the day. It bothers me that I didn’t have my ‘quiet time’ as I do need it to help get me through the day.
I pick up a few stray items on the way back into the kitchen and grab my laptop off my desk. I thought I would sit down really quick and figure out a few more things on this blog thingy I’m trying to do. I grab a sheet of paper and jot down a few ideas as well as some other things I think of that need to be taken care of.
The minute my butt hits the stool the other kids start waking up. I start to get bombarded with questions and problems.
‘Mom, she has my shirt!’
‘Mom, I’m hungry!’
‘Mommy, mommy, mommy!’
I close the laptop because it is only stressing me out trying to figure out technical details with life happening. I wonder how anyone really has the time to do this and is it really worth it? This has been a similar scenario for the past few months when starting a blog was first brought up to me.
Right now I’m typing this on my phone and praying it will post correctly. The cats are at the door begging to be fed. The roosters are still crowing and so is one of kids. I can hear Oscar, my gander, scolding me for being late to feed.
Mornings are crazy here. Actually most days are crazy here. After breakfast I will head out to feed the animals and then come back in to oversee our morning chorea and start our school lessons for the day.
I have somehow lost the simple country life I dreamed of and it has been replaced with a chaotic, noisy life. I wouldn’t trade it though. I know this is just a season we are going through.
I know I will find moments through the day to speak to God and there will be quiet times when he will speak to me. There will be moments with the kids that I will always cherish. I may get stressed from time to time but I can use these times to push to my goal of the simple country life.
For now I’ll drink my cold coffee and then put some water on to boil so I can make some tea. I might not have a back porch swing yet but I can watch the sunset from my back steps and dream.

Cherished

SUSIE MIMM KIRBY·SUNDAY, OCTOBER 23, 2016

Its been a little while since I’ve written anything. I’ve had lots to think about and even more to do. One thing that has been on my mind a lot is what I would like to find in a relationship. Surprisingly enough one thing I desire is to be cherished. I think most of us want this too but few of us have ever felt this. What does it even mean?
cher·ishˈCHeriSH/verbpast tense: cherished; past participle: cherished
  1. protect and care for (someone) lovingly.”he cared for me beyond measure and cherished me in his heart”synonyms:adore, hold dear, love, dote on, be devoted to, revere, esteem, admire; More
    • hold (something) dear.”I cherish the letters she wrote”synonyms:treasure, prize, value highly, hold dear”I cherish her letters”
    • keep (a hope or ambition) in one’s mind.”he had long cherished a secret fantasy about his future”synonyms:harbor, entertain, possess, hold (on to), cling to, keep in one’s mind, foster, nurture“they cherished dreams of glory”
To cherish someone means we make another person our priority relationship. We can show them we cherish them by providing them with a loving, safe, secure environment. A place where they would never doubt our love, our care, and our commitment to them and our relationship.
I want my partner to love me, of course. But I also want him to protect me and to care for me, to adore me, to hold me close to his heart and to keep me in his thoughts and prayers.
I want him to encourage me and to be a breath of fresh air when I get overwhelmed and feel like I am smothering under my responsibilities.
Of course, I would show him the same in return but I think so many couples lack this one very important aspect of relationships. Its not just saying the words ‘I love you’ but showing them that makes a person feel cherished.
We can show our partners that we cherish them by sacrificing things for their behalf. It may be giving them the last bit of cake or missing out on a guys/girls night out to spend time with them.
Its in the little things we do or should do on a daily basis like touching them, listening to them, encouraging them, complimenting on something they did, and showing them respect.
Its also in the way we act towards them in public and the things we say about them to others. We also need to spend time alone with our partners to reconnect on a regular basis.
Its in the little gifts we give, just because, or the things we do without being asked.
If we all just took a few minutes everyday to look for ways to show one another how much we love each other then we would all feel cherished.