He hears our cries…

I was scrolling Facebook with my morning coffee when I came across this post. It touched my heart and gave me a reminder of just how wonderful our Father is!

‘I stood at the kitchen sink washing a bottle, listening to my baby cry from the living room. He was safe in his crib, his diaper had just been changed, but he was hungry. I hated hearing my baby cry, but I knew he was okay. And though he couldn’t understand it, I was preparing exactly what he needed, what he was crying for. In just a few minutes, with a full bottle in hand, I would pick him up and his cries would stop.

Standing over that kitchen sink, my heart realized how many times I have been in his place. I’ve been crying—safe and loved—but crying out to my God. My prayers shouting to Him exactly what I wanted, what I needed, but they were met with silence.

I couldn’t see Him. I didn’t recognize the work He was doing. And though I couldn’t understand it, He was preparing exactly what I needed, what I was crying for.

If you have found yourself in a season of crying out to God, wondering where He is or what He’s doing, remember that your Father in Heaven loves you more than you can imagine. He’s standing in the next room, listening to your cries, preparing what you need.

You have not been abandoned. You are not alone. Your God is at work. He hears your cries.

“So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
(2 Corinthians 4:18, NIV’

Loving our Lord with Kelsey Scism

I hope this touches someone’s heart today. Remember that He knows our every need before we even speak them.


Counting our blessings

This was actually meant to publish back in March but for one reason or another it didn’t. A lot has happened since then … the biggest thing being Shyanne’s leukemia diagnosis.

Hey everybody! We hope you all are doing well… everyone here is doing pretty good.

The kiddos have been catching up on school work. They’ve not been too happy to double up in some lessons but they are getting it done. One of the younger boys said that he knows we need to work a bit harder to catch up for the days when we didn’t do anything because we were going through a ‘crisis’. That just goes to show that kids know more than they let on.

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Scars will fade…

Now before you read this please know that I know I’m not the first nor the last woman to have a c-section. I knew going into the latter part of the pregnancy that this was most likely the way we would deliver. I mean I even got a date for our planned c-section.

I thought I was prepared.

I did my research, asked tons of questions, and tried to prepare myself as best I could and I’m so glad I did that. In actuality though nothing can prepare you completely for something like this.

I’m not going into a lot of details right now about the events that led up to Miss Shyanne’s birth but I can say I’d do it a hundred times over if I had too!

Yesterday marked one week since we went to the hospital and delivered. They had put a covering, bio guard?, over the incision so I had not seen it… I’ve definitely felt it though.

When I took my shower last night the covering was starting to come off so I took it off… the doctors had told me it would soon. I couldn’t see the scar because there’s a bit of flabby belly still there and honestly, I was a bit afraid to look.

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She’s Here!

Hey y’all! I’m so so sorry that I kinda just dropped off the social media for a bit. The past few months have been very hard as this pregnancy took so much out of me but we are so happy to announce that the wait is over!

Just before midnight on July 8th Ms. Shyanne came screaming into this world via c-section. Although we were as ready as we thought we could be we weren’t quite expecting her to be here right then.

She weighed in at 8lbs and 1 oz and she was 19 1/2 inches long. They also determined that she was around 36 weeks when she delivered.

She is in the NICU due to some of her prenatal diagnosis. She has already breezed through one surgery and is making daily progress towards coming home although we know there will be more surgeries to come.

While the pregnancy seemed so chaotic from the beginning with all the negativity because of my age and then diagnosis after diagnosis for our little girl, (Just this last month we learned of her duodenal atresia which resulted in severe polyhydramnios and then we were ultimately admitted for preeclampsia/HELLP syndrome.), we feel so blessed to have this precious addition to our family.

I will try to finish up some of the posts related to her prenatal issues as well as a more detailed post about her birth and NICU stays but for now I’m just going to try to focus on life at home and recovering so that I can be ready to take care of our little one when she comes home.

We have been posting updates and tons of pictures on our personal FB pages if you’d like to follow us. I’ll also try to start posting on Instagram more regularly as well.

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and most of all for your prayers and please keep us in your prayers as we know the next few months will be quite crazy around here.

Shyanne’s Story: Unexpected News

Well, today (May 13) has been a bit on the emotional side. I’m not even sure where to start but many of you that have followed our blog know that this pregnancy has been full of surprises:

An Unexpected Journey

Sometimes You Just Need To Let The Tears Flow

Finding Joy In The Difficult Days

Our little Wonder Woman… some good news! Continue reading “Shyanne’s Story: Unexpected News”

Staying Busy While Staying At Home

Gosh, I really don’t even know where to start. We have been under a stay at home order since last week. I haven’t been anywhere since my doctor’s appointment last Tuesday so it’s been about a week.

I normally don’t go out much anyway but there is just something about being told not to that makes you want to… anybody else feel like that?

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Our little Wonder Woman… some good news!

This Momma’s heart is so happy right now. If you follow me on Facebook you will know that I requested prayers for our little one. Our fetal cardiologist appointment got moved up to today and I was very anxious.

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Where oh where did my motivation go?

Whew! I feel like I’ve been hit by a freight train this morning!

For the past couple of mornings I’ve been waking up with a slight discomfort which I believe is caused by the way little Miss Priss is laying… she already has her favorite position. The only way to get any relief is to either get up and walk around or lay on my back. Laying on your back while pregnant is not recommended so I usually end up getting up… no wonder I’m so tired.

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Finding Joy In The Difficult Days

Hey everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. We accomplished a few things like getting the new light wired in the bathroom and getting everything laid out and marked.

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Looking On The Bright Side

Well, as you know from yesterday’s post I was a little emotional waiting for this doctor’s visit and ultrasound. I had prayed that everything would look better than it did before but that wasn’t really the case.

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Sometimes You Just Need To Let a The Tears Flow

I know I talk a lot about looking at the bright side of the situation and not dwelling on the bad. Sometimes though you do just need to go ahead and have a little (or a big) cry.

Today has been my day. It started at some point during the night when I woke up thinking about something someone had said. I really don’t think they meant it the way it seemed but it set a fear in my heart.

Tomorrow is a big day… out 20 week scan. We’ve already had quite a bit of not so good news that any parent wouldn’t want to receive but the remark made me fear that I might get worse news tomorrow.

On top of that we are all dealing with effects of ‘social distancing’ and that means that I can’t bring anyone to my appointment with me. That brought even more fears of what I might do if I did get more bad news tomorrow.

I’ve also been dealing with some insurance drama. I’ve been experiencing some heart issues related to the pregnancy and some of the medication I was prescribed. I have an appointment but the cardiologist can’t get an authorization from the insurance unless my PCP makes the referral.

Well, my PCP doesn’t want to see me because I’m an OB patient now. I’ve spoken to several people and left messages. I have a caseworker from my insurance trying to sort it out now so maybe I’ll know something soon.

So today I guess the stress and pregnancy hormones have gotten to me and I’ve found myself crying at random moments throughout the day. I’m talking about uncontrollable sobbing… it’s been bad but I know I probably just need to get it out.

I also have to remind myself that the Bible doesn’t tell us to worry and doubt or to be afraid. Instead we are to trust in His plan, His word, and His promises. I know that He is allowing this for a reason and He is preparing me for something better to come.

Even though it’s been a rough day I know that things will get better. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we go to this appointment tomorrow.

Thank you all!

Yet Another Unexpected Roadblock! (Updated)

Hey there everyone! How have you been? I’ve been on the computer most of the morning taking care of some paperwork and applications for the kids’ schooling and such. Our slow internet makes things take two or three times as long as they should and it’s making me CRAZY! I’m actually writing this post as I wait for some scholarship information to pull up.

I was hoping to be writing with some good news but unfortunately, we have hit yet another roadblock with the house. Disclaimer: This post may be a partial vent! This past weekend we had planned to get quite a few things accomplished and possibly get quite a bit moved in but that didn’t happen. Continue reading “Yet Another Unexpected Roadblock! (Updated)”